That's all I want to do right now. Just write. Whatever I think, whatever I feel. I don't have anything in particular in mind. Maybe I just want to ramble.
I have had pretty much 0 cravings this pregnancy. I'm 14 weeks along and so far, I only wanted soy sauce 2 days in a row and potatoes 4 days in a row. But other than that, nothing. Mostly I just don't know what I want to eat and I know what I definitely will not eat (fish. and I love fish on a normal basis.)
I miss being a wife, but I'm scared of ever getting married again. But I also feel like marrying again would be the right thing. I have conflict with it. I go back and forth a lot. And even though I guess I'm not exactly on speaking terms with God and haven't attended church in over 2 years, the whole divorce thing bugs the crap out of me. It's not supposed to happen and I hate that it did. Then there are other verses in the Bible that says either I return to my first husband or stay single. I don't exactly want to doom myself or something. Too much conflict. Maybe I'm just waiting for an "Hey! It's ok because of this and this circumstance!" But because I'm waiting on that, I bet it means that it just isn't ok. Ex didn't cheat on me and that is the only real reason for divorce, biblically. I guess there's really no point in seeking advice on this from anyone other than someone thoroughly knowledgeable on the subject, but I just needed to get it out.
I'm hungry. I kind of want a sandwich. But every time I eat bread or crackers, this nasty starch taste just stays in my mouth so I just prefer not to eat any bread products. lol.